Maybe its because I am named Thomas, but I can't help but feel a certain affinity for this song. At the same time, the earnest vocals and the straight forward approach make me slightly embarrassed to admit it. I feel a sense of shame as the lyrics confront my own weaknesses, fears and doubts and I know that I would be far more reticent to express them in a song for the world to hear. Its beautiful and humbling and embarrassing, but it is also inspiring.
Sometimes I pray for a slap in the face,What is expressed as a lack of faith actually implies a stronger faith than many, and the expression of doubt and weakness suggests a deeper humility that most musicians are sorely lacking. We have a few too many betraying judases and persecuting pharisees and not nearly enough doubting thomases... those who are on the right path, but are struggling to advance.
Then I beg to be spared 'cause I'm a coward,
If there's a master of death I'll bet he's holding his breath,
As I show the blind and tell the deaf about his power,
I'm a doubting thomas,
I can't keep my promises,
'Cause i don't know what's safe,
oh me of little faith